CHAPTER III THE HIDDEN
WHOLENESS: PARADOX IN TEACHING AND LEARNING
Palmer writes that we are trained
to “think the world apart,” dissecting it into either-ors, but we need to learn
to “think the world together,” embracing opposites and appreciating paradoxes.
The principle of paradox can guide us in thinking about classroom dynamics—and
in designing a teaching and learning space that can hold the community of
truth.
I.
In what ways have you experienced
“suffering” as a student teacher? Has your suffering had any redemptive quality
to it; that is, has it made you heart larger? What would help you deepen the
redemptive quality of the suffering your experience in your work?

I have experienced many difficult
experiences that have led to suffering on my part. Teaching is a very difficult
task that requires a lot of determination to be carried out. I have gone
through suffering in many situations; for example, when my students misbehave
and do not pay attention to me, I become extremely angry. It makes me suffer; however,
I perfectly know that it is not appropriate to show them my anger. I get angry
although my relational nature often keeps me from expressing my anger in clean
and open ways (The Courage to Teach, Chapter III, Page 72). I have come to know
that this suffering that I experience while teaching is pure evidence that I am
alive. As a result, I have free myself from that kind of suffering and it has
made my heart larger towards teaching because I focused more on my gifts rather
than in my suffering.
I
think that I may use different methods and techniques that work successfully
for my students as well as for me. This will help me to deepen the redemptive
qualities of my suffering because by doing so I will be more likely to put in
practice my gifts as a teacher. To learn that lesson well, I must take a
solitary journey into my own nature and seek the help of others in seeing
myself as I am (The Courage to Teach, Chapter III, page 73)
II.
Name some of your key gifts or strengths
as a teacher. Now name a struggle or
difficulty you commonly have in teaching. How do you understand the relation
between your profile of giftedness and the kind of trouble you typically get
into in the classroom?
Every strength is also a weakness, a limitation, a dimension of identity
that serves me and others well under some circumstances but not all the time.
(The Courage to Teach, Chapter III, page 71)

As we go through the path of life we learn to recognize our strengths
and weaknesses as well in whatever we do. Teaching is a very complex task yet
highly rewarding. We, who teach, must be aware of our gifts and weaknesses in
this field. Personally, I consider that one of my gifts as a teacher is to be
always open to my students’ opinions. I am always willing to hear attentively
to what they have to say so that they can feel accepted and important in the
classroom. 2) The capacity to establish my objectives clearly and the
flexibility to a variety of ways of achieving them is also a gift that I, as a
teacher, posses. When I start a lesson I have previously established the
direction where I want to conduct my class, and if for one reason or another,
things do not work the way I had expected in the class, I look for new ways to
achieve my goals even If I had to change almost everything that I have planned.
I do not give up easily. 3) The desire to engage my students in the class
activities is another gift. I always try to look for new techniques in order to
make them active participants so that they contribute to build their own
knowledge. 4) The capacity to get my students to connect the academic contents with
the real life is one of my greatest gifts. When I teach a lesson, I always try
to relate it with real experiences so that they can get meaningful and relevant
learning to their lives. 5) I am open towards my students’ needs by being
friendly but not friend with them. I
think it is very important to know my students very well because in that way I
can look for new techniques in order to enhance their learning.
To catch my students’ attention is one of the struggle or difficulties
that I commonly face while teaching. Sometimes, the class goes out of control
and it is very difficult for me to get my students to pay attention to what I
am saying. I think that one of the reasons is that my voice is very soft and
that’s why they do not pay attention to me. I tend to speak very low especially
when I am dealing with large groups. However, I consider that this doesn’t have
to hinder the learning process because as I mentioned above I always try to
look for new techniques in order to engage my students in the class activities.
I don´t have to let this kind of difficulties be greater than my
strengths.
III.
Describe a moment in teaching when
things went so well you knew you were “born to teach” and compare it to a
moment in which things went so poorly you wished you had never been born! Name
the gifts that made this good moment possible—not the techniques you used or
the moves you made, but your qualities.
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I have a fond memory of the time I taught High School students. I
remember that we were dealing with the Simple Past Tense. I wanted them to
relate this grammatical structure with their own lives. So, I asked them to
think about a fond memory of their childhood. Then, I asked them to form pairs
so that they could share their experiences. Next, I asked them to form small
groups of three so that they could know about their classmates’ childhood. I
could perceive that they were eager to share their experiences with their
classmates. When I asked for volunteers to past to the front to share their
experiences, I saw that most of them wanted to participate. So I gave them the opportunity to share their
own experience and what they had heard from their classmates. Everybody was
paying attention to what his classmate had to say. We had a good time because some of their
experiences were very funny. I noticed that they liked this kind of activities.
I felt so satisfied that I said to myself I was definitely born to teach.
Therefore, I agree with Palmer on his take “Becoming
aware of our gifts can help us teach more consistently from our identity and
integrity” (The Courage to Teach, Chapter III, page 69) When we as teachers
perfectly know which our strengths are, we can make a better use of them. As a
result, teaching will become more rewarding for us.

This experience with my Junior High School students was completely
different from the one I had while teaching Junior High School. I perfectly
remember that day. I entered the classroom, and I noticed that they were making
too much noise. So, I told them to be quiet because the class was going to
start but they did not listen to me. Then, I asked them to make silence in a
polite way, and they stopped making noise. I wanted to develop a warm-up
activity with them in order that they could get familiarize with the kind of
vocabulary we were going to study. I asked them to form two lines but everything
went wrong because they started to shout, whistle and to push one another. I
asked them to stop but they did not listen to me. One of the boys told me that
they didn’t like English classes and that they thought that starting the class
with a game was too childish. So, I stopped the activity and began to deliver
the lesson. However, they did not behave, and I couldn’t get them to
participate in the class. They were doing other things, and some of them were
saying nasty words. I felt so angry and so disappointed that I even wanted to
cry, but I knew that I couldn’t do that in front of my students. I think that that has been the worst
experience I have ever face while teaching.

I think that my experience with High School students was so memorable
because I made use of the gifts I posses as a teacher. I think that showing them that I was
interested in listening what they were saying contributed to form a secure
environment in which they could talked about their experiences without fear.
They felt confident because they knew that I was not going to judge them, and I
was open towards their experiences. Also, I got them to connect the content
with the real life because I was willing to share my own experience. In that
way, they felt more at ease to participate. Moreover, I tried to show them an
attitude of acceptance towards them.
IV.
Palmer discusses six paradoxes of
pedagogical design (pp.73-83). Choose one to focus on. Share examples of teaching environments you
have experienced where this paradox is honored.
The space should be hospitable and charged.
Sometimes, we may find the experience of space a
little strange. Besides, we may have the fear of getting lost. Learning spaces
need to be hospitable ‘inviting as well as open, safe and reliable as well as
free’. When exploring we need places to rest and find sustenance. But if
students feel too safe, they may fall in their comfort zone. Space needs to be
charged so that they know the risks involved in looking at the deeper aspects of
life. No special effects are required for
creating this charge- it comes with the territory. We only need fenced the
space, fill it with topics of significance, and refuse to let anyone evade or
trivialize them (The Courage to Teach, Chapter III, page 75).
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I have experienced teaching environments in
which this paradox has been honored during my High School teaching practicum.
The students, in this case the guests were sitting in a U shape so that everybody
could face each other and could listen to the different opinions that may arise
in the classroom. In this way, they found a safe and inviting learning
environment. They felt that they are equally important in the classroom. I
remember that we were dealing with past habits. I showed some pictures to them
and they started giving their opinions about what they saw in the picture.
Everybody had the opportunity to participate in the activity. In this way, the
environment was hospitable because they felt free to participate. Also, it was
charged because they had to be paying attention to the pictures I was showing
in order to give their opinion. They were actively engaged in the class. I
think that this paradox was fully honored.
Have you ever been in a classroom where only
half of the paradox was honored while the other half was ignored? Describe what
that classroom was like.
Sometimes, this paradox cannot be
completely honored due to many factors that may occur in a class. I remember
that once I was developing an activity. I had prepared many tasks for them to
be completely engaged in the class. However, it was a failure because the
environment was not hospitable. I realized that they were extremely tired and
bored. The tension could be felt in the air. I asked them what was happening
and some of them told me that they had just finished a very difficult test from
another subject. It was almost impossible to get them to be engaged in the
class because they were distracted or doing some other things. The class was
boring and frustrating because I couldn’t achieve what I wanted.

V.
What questions are you living at this
stage of your life—from “How can I get up in the morning? To “How can I become
a good teacher? Are the questions you are now living the ones you want to live?
If not, what questions would you like to be living? How might you hold these
questions at the center of your attention?
I think that questions are present in
every day of our lives. The questions that I am living right now are:
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How can start the day positively?
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How can I meet my immediate goals?
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What can I do in order to improve my
level of English?
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How can I better my teaching skills?
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What techniques can I use in order to
better my language skills?
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How can I deliver the lessons in a more
effective way?
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How can I get my students to be engaged
in my classes?
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Am I giving my best in order to achieve
my goals?
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Am I going to reach what I want?
These are the questions I am living
right now, and they are the questions that I want to live at this point in my
life. I consider that by asking them to myself I become aware of what I need to
do in order to find the answers. Moreover, they are important questions that
will help me to become a better teacher.
I think that I can hold these questions
in the center of my attention by having clear objectives and by setting
specific goals. I have to be conscious that I will be highly benefited by
answering these questions. Moreover, I have to work hard in order to obtain
what I want.